MY TESTIMONY FROM JUNE, 2002

Have you ever tried to walk around your house when it is so pitch black that you can?t see a thing? That is how my life was before I found Jesus Christ and Whole Person Counselling.
My life was an endless road that held much pain and turmoil. I had expierienced a dramatic end to an affair that I had that left me with much pain. I was suffering flashbacks (some of these were from past experiences of other pain in my life), panic attacks, guilt, shame, profound mood swings and endless thoughts of suicide.
I had been to enough counselling in my life that I knew what I could expect if I went to a secular counsellor. I was looking forward to months if not years of therapy, and more than likely medication. This was going to add to the endless amount of debt that I found my family already into. I did not want to add any more red ink.
I went looking for answers. I was in search of a light to the terrible endless darkness that seemed to encompass my entire life. I wanted hope, peace and happiness. I wanted the pain of my life to end, even if it meant ending my life so that the pain and darkness would end.
It happened one day that I was in search of counselling or some self help on the Internet. I put out a search for the words cognitive therapy. (Therapy that changes the way you think to how you feel.) This type of therapy I had received before and it seemed to work but, I knew I also wanted more. The feelings were back in as great of intensity as they were before and I wanted it all to end. I knew there had to be more.
I found Whole Person Counselling after putting in this search. I looked at the material and kept finding my way back to the site. I found myself on the page where the appointments were located some time in the later part of May. I found myself writing to Whole Person Counselling in desperation to find some sort of counselling. I received a letter back from
Basil Frasure, PhD explaining that he did not do Internet counselling, that he did do leave counselling where I could come to Texas.
Without going into much detail on my road to San Angelo Texas, I will state that on June 30, 2002 I found myself in a city that I didn?t know, far away from home, and meeting a man I had only e-mailed. This was all God directed.
Counselling started as normal counselling does with the background information and talking about my thoughts of suicide. I left the first session on Sunday thinking that I would have to end up staying in San Angelo forever with all the stuff going on in my head. Basil gave me his phone number and a phone and told me to please call if I was going to harm myself.
The first full day of counselling was different than other counsel that I had. I had accepted Jesus but, I never knew who I was in Jesus until I sat and listened to Basil talk. We read scripture after scripture. I came to know that I am a saint, that once was a sinner saved by grace. This simple concept started to bring just a little light in the darkness.
The Holy Spirit would not let Basil rest with the knowledge of suicide hanging. He was led to approach this subject with me. We looked at Jonah and the lies that the enemy tells us. He said to me, "O.k. here is where I am lead. I can?t make you do anything you don?t want to do, but do you want to be free from suicide?"
My response was yes! Basil lead me through a prayer. I want to say at this point that during this prayer , I was squirming in the couch. He asked me during the prayer, "Are you okay?"
I had to answer honestly, "No there is a major spiritual warfare going on."
He asked me to tell him about it. I explained that I was getting, oh no you don?t, and other things. I was shaking my head no the whole time. He continued to lead me through prayer binding the enemy and binding the spirit of suicide to leave.
Soon, I felt an ease come over me. A great power flow through me. Basil told me to ask the Holy Spirit if I was now free of suicide. The answer, YES! Wow! Basil confirmed this knowledge.
After that, he said, "That is the first time I have ever been asked to do it that way." The Holy Spirit knew what I needed to be able to get out of the rest of the week what I needed and how it was suppose to happen.
The next couple of days were the hardest as I talked about the hurts that I had experienced in my life. One by one we would speak of them and go through the process of bringing them before God.
I had an experience of witnessing a major bruise in my life being visually lifted from my body. I saw black and blue marks being lifted away and my skin clear as we prayed during one session. By Thursday afternoon, I felt like a new person. The clouds now wiped away and the light of Christ comes shining vividly through.
I came away from Whole Person Counselling feeling 250% better. I no longer have panic attacks, mood swings, guilt, shame or profound thoughts of suicide. My mind is clear, the sky is bright and God?s sun is shining brightly in my life. I have a new counsellor, Jesus Christ, my lord and my saviour. If you want hope, and for sunshine happiness, find Jesus first and consider Whole Person Counselling. Consider Gods Word in 1st Peter 2:9 "But ye [are] a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light: "


Here is a poem I wrote,
When Darkness Comes

When darkness comes
let a light shine through
Let your spirit fly
and your cares to flee
Let the love of God
begin to set you free.

When darkness comes
let your heart not sigh
Believe in God?s grace
and His precious blood
Let that darkness end
Let His light shine in

Jill Ann Sparks

Here is the current list of my heros. A hero defined in the dictionary is as follows;
a : a mythological or legendary figure often of divine descent endowed with great strength or ability b : an illustrious warrior c : a man admired for his achievements and noble qualities d : one that shows great courage.
If you are a prayer "warrior" then you are classified as a hero. If you are a christian, then you have noble qualities that are also classified as a hero.


Phil Whigham, Jacqueline O'dell, Jewell Seprodi, Nancy Bright, Jennifer Hinkle, The Merom Post Mistress Lady (I DO know what her name is: Marcy Kennet.)My daughters: Brandy Yonce, Stephanie Yonce, and Heather Yonce, Leah Jackson, JoAnn Woodsmall, Alice Cox, Tammy Rogers, Stacy Whigham, Cheryl Kemp, Linda Linnenkamp, Elizabeth Jennings, my second mom: Donna Homsley, my hair cut man: Jeff, Marcia Garrett, Theresa O'Kelley, Carol Stubbs, Charles Sparks

Stay tuned and keep praying...God is at work.
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1Jo 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us [our] sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

1Jo 1:10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.